Sorry for allat

I'm feeling slightly better now, Last night I got to have dinner with my wife and cuddle her and kiss her and pet her cat and watch Mythbusters, and now I'm having computer time while she plays Morrowind. I already did all my bedtime stuff so i can sleep literally whenever now. I had a stressful day. Someone didn't show to my rehearsal and I'm getting stressed about it because like, I taught important new stuff and had to space it without someone. She didn't even respond to my texts. But I did get extra rehearsal time, because the next group cancelled. 

I hit breaking point last night, though. I couldn't sleep, so I asked my girlfriend to give me math problems (since that's kind of an inside joke we have). I failed to do some basic multiplication problems and then started sobbing because I felt so stupid. It was compounding with the amount of stupid I felt from my grades' slippage. I got a 9.5/16 on my presentation, and just got an 18/30 on an orgo quiz. I think I'm doing well in orgo otherwise, though, my other grades have been respectable. But I still feel stupid. Anyway. I was crying and started rambling, and my girlfriend, obviously frustrated with me, told me to take deep breaths. I waited for her to fall asleep and then I kept monologuing. Whispering to myself. She couldn't hear me, nobody could hear me. I just whispered to the air for what felt like 15 minutes straight before I fell asleep. I woke up kind of well rested, maybe? I'm still tired, but I got a lot of sleep and I don't think I feel as awful as I have for the rest of recently. 

I posted my battle jacket to reddit (stupid, I know, but I got validation for it when I posted a year ago) and got a couple of hate comments. Nothing too creative, just "looks like ass" "this belongs on r/baddlejackets" and, hilariously, someone writing "not a single band patch, just leftist slogans". Are we looking at the same jacket??? I have >10 band patches and 0 leftist slogan patches... (there are 2 patches that take the stances of antipsychiatry and pro-transfeminism, but that's it). This morning I found out that somebody reposted my javket to r/baddlejackets with the caption "I think it needs more lgbt symbols and interracial lesbians since thats (sic) is all that defines the owner apparently". I was confused about the interracial lesbians part since I have no race-related slogans on my jacket, but then I remembered that I have a Vesperoan button. Did this guy seriously just zero in on a singular button and decide to choose hate? 

OK, now that that's all set up. The punchline: EVERYONE ON R/BADDLEJACKETS DEFENDED ME. The hateful subreddit dedicated to making fun of battle jackets made by trans people DEFENDED ME? Most of the comments wrote variations on "this jacket is fine, there are plenty of band patches on this, you're just homophobic" which is just so funny to me. Congratulations, ya played yourself. Not even r/baddlejackets will join you in making fun of me...